We went for egg retrieval today, and it's with a heart felt regret that I post that we had no eggs retrieved. None, not a one. We had follicles but no eggs. Our doctor and his staff were mystified and very supportive. I knew that we didn't have any because I was coming in and out of the anesthesia and heard "none" several times. Our doctor said there wasn't even any cells that they normally see when aspirating. I don't know if I ovulated early or my follicles were not mature or if I am just at the end of the road. It broke my heart to see Jonathan tear up as he tried to give me support. I appreciate all your support and prayers. I am unbelievably calm and full of peace. It's hard to believe that this is it, but in a way it is easier to get past than losing anymore babies.

We always knew that Cooper and Elliott were true miracles and now recognize even more what a miracle and blessings they really are. I couldn't wait to get home to see them. They are the best medicine for me right now

Thanks so much for all your support and prayers during our invitros. I don't think that I can give up just yet on having more children, but my invitro cycles are done......If it is going to happen then it will have to happen naturally at this point.

Praise the Lord.......I am on my knees in praise and gratitude!! I went in for my follie check up today! The nurse asked how I was feeling and I said I felt bloated and a lot of pressure in my abdomen. I told her I hope that it is my follicles and not gas!! When the resident and the doctor came in I jokingly said that when my husband asked me what I wanted for Valentine's Day, I told him a dozen mature eggs!! Well, we don't have a dozen but we've got a lot of good sized eggies. My doctor said I have the "three musketeers" on the right side with other smaller ones that could come into play and on my left (yes the MIA ovary) has two good sized one as well. My largest one is on my left size and is 21!! I could see all my follies like quarter sized on the screen. I am so happy. the Doctor looked up and said "you are going to trigger tonight!" I couldn't believe it. I am always the last to trigger since I respond so poorly and slowly. I take my trigger shot at 8PM tonight and my egg retrieval is at 7:45AM on Thursday. Transfer is set for Sunday. My E2 is only 641......so hopefully it will keep rising and be well over 1000 at retrieval.

Please keep us in your prayers and I'll post how many eggs were retrieved on Thursday and a fertilization report on Friday!!

Today was my day 5 ultrasound (after stimming) I was really worried and while there saw one patient leave who looked like they were crying, and heard one through the walls.......they are so darn thin......that things didn't look so good. And as I sat there thinking what if I was rushing this ivf, or trying so hard that maybe it wasn't His time for us to have more children. But then out of no where......I know it was Him, and your prayers that comforted me as I thought and prayed "This is all You, this is in Your hands, no matter what I know that whatever happens I will be ok"....and then I looked up at the ceiling (the kind of drop ceiling tile that has a gazillion little dots) and reaffirmed my mustard seed faith as I entered the ultrasound room.

Today the doctor had an intern who did my initial exam....guess that they have to learn somewhere......but that wand can be discomforting if you don't know what you are doing. My lining is good 6 or more and showing good signs of triple stripe. My right ovary has 2-3 measurable follies with a few smaller ones. My left one he couldn't find but the RE took over and found it and it had 2 follies and some smaller ones. I got the call back this afternoon that my E2 was 127!! Our ivf in Nov at day 5, I was only at 98.5. They told me they were happy with my number as anything over 100 at this point was good.

I go back on Sunday.......please continue praying for all my follies to grow and become mature. It would be great to go in on Sunday and see those smaller ones catching up. Last time I didn't have many follies and I am excited and surprised that we had some this time (I just didn't feel any action going on down there but apparently there is)

Hello!! We just wanted to update on our upcoming invitro cycle. I started the stim shots on Sunday (hopefully we will have lots of follicles on my next appointment). I went for my baseline appointment last Friday and I had one follicle already. We are hoping that we will have at least 10 or more around the same size. I am on a higher dose of medicine this time so it means I have 4 shots per day, thankfully the needles are small (like insulin needles). Our doctor is hoping that the higher dosage will help us have more eggs at retrieval. Please pray for us and we will update you after our Thursday appointment at 9:45AM!