Our ultrasound was this morning and we did not receive good news. It appears that our baby is in my right tube. We are devastated........a clear yolk sac could be seen in-between my right ovary and my uterus. Our doctor tried to get in closer to see if we could see a heartbeat flickering but we could not distinguish between mine and what could have been our babies. We are waiting for my beta count and we have to make a decision. I am either going to have the methotrexate shot or be scheduled for surgery. Either way, we will lose this child. This is my second ectopic on my right side. I don't know what to do, and I don't have a lot of time to think about it. I could have the shot, and because my last beta was 2144 (Friday), my tube could rupture and I would need surgery. I may be too far along for the shot to work at this point. On the other hand, I could have the shot and not have surgery but have a risk of this happening again (it has been 8 years between my ectopics). I could have surgery to remove my tube, but risks come with surgery.

None of this is fair....... this will be our 11th loss in our 10 years of marriage. I'll try and update as to what we are going to do. When I left the doctor's office, I said I wanted my tube removed......now I just don't know. Please pray for me!

First of all my doctor called me and it was close to 1PM........so I thought immediately I was going to get bad news (usually good news travels fast and through the nurse).

My beta is 2144 which is a really good number.......normally good enough to see something on the ultrasound but we saw nothing but a really fat lining today. He did tell me that he has had several patients not have anything show up on u/s until their betas reached 3000. That made me feel better. I go back on Monday for ultrasound and repeat beta......if nothing shows up then it is most likely an ectopic (tubal pregnancy). We will deal with that when the time comes. Right now, I am not cramping, nor bleeding.

Please hold us in your prayers today and throughout the weekend and especially on Monday. We've never had a beta this high on our own before (our first ectopic was much lower) I know that HE is in control and has plans for this child. It's going to be a long, long, weekend! We'll be going out of town (to VA) for my nephew's bday so that will take my mind off of things.

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We have some good news to report. Our second beta is 113 Praise the Lord......we are over one hurdle! That means my numbers have doubled and is a good sign. All morning I just couldn't help shake that I was going to get "the dreaded call" that my numbers went down. I just don't "feel" as pregnant as I did with our last pregnancy. The doctor and his nurse said the number was really good and I scheduled for an ultrasound next Friday morning. They think that I am around 4 weeks along right now. Please continue to pray for me and our baby.....I have a history of ectopic (tubal) and early miscarriage so this is one hurdle of many we have to get over. One good thing is that this is the only pregnancy that I've not spotted with....so I feel good about that.

I think I am still in shock.....and we are still guardedly optimistic. We can feel your prayers and are still comforted in knowing that it's by God's grace that this is happening.

Thank you for all your prayers, kind words, and responses. One of my favorites was "I pray that your hand is on this child you have created and know the days ordained for it. I pray the days are many on this earth and they can proclaim your name through this miracle baby" I have read that over and over again!