You won't believe this....we thought it was over, I guess I will be the "fat lady" singing in the end.......I took a home pregnancy test yesterday and we saw two lines. I called the doctors office and they had me come in and do a test and blood work there. We could not get the blood test results until this morning but their urine test was positive.

We got the call from the RE's office.......

My BETA 192 (this is REALLY good)
Progesterone over 40 (all on my own no PIO shots!!)

I may have to go back on Friday for a "doubling" check since I've had the ectopic and the blocked tube.

My ultrasound is scheduled early March 10th to find out how many fertilized in utero.......we had 8 follicles altogether before the egg retrieval. I am guessing there may be more than one.....yesterday would have been 10days past a 3day transfer (had we made it to transfer) and my first beta when I had twins was only 76 at 11days past 3day transfer (it doubled to 188 at 13 dp3dt).....I am nervous with the bleeding scare we had on Tuesday....I seem to have irregular bleeding scares when I am pregnant, 1st one ectopic, 2nd with twins, and now this one!!

We are still in shock.....this is unbelievable......from no eggs at ER to seeing two lines......And I thought Cooper and Elliott were the last we'd seen of miracles.......but to have another like this......what a testimony I'll have to give at the end of a healthy pregnancy. I know we won't see heartbeats at our ultrasound because I'll be around 5 weeks then (by RE's nurse report)......but I am praying and will welcome all prayers that our pregnancy continue to be healthy!!

The phone has been ringing off the hook, so if you didn't get a phone call by me or my mom.....it's because our phone lines have been tied up!!

We went for egg retrieval today, and it's with a heart felt regret that I post that we had no eggs retrieved. None, not a one. We had follicles but no eggs. Our doctor and his staff were mystified and very supportive. I knew that we didn't have any because I was coming in and out of the anesthesia and heard "none" several times. Our doctor said there wasn't even any cells that they normally see when aspirating. I don't know if I ovulated early or my follicles were not mature or if I am just at the end of the road. It broke my heart to see Jonathan tear up as he tried to give me support. I appreciate all your support and prayers. I am unbelievably calm and full of peace. It's hard to believe that this is it, but in a way it is easier to get past than losing anymore babies.

We always knew that Cooper and Elliott were true miracles and now recognize even more what a miracle and blessings they really are. I couldn't wait to get home to see them. They are the best medicine for me right now

Thanks so much for all your support and prayers during our invitros. I don't think that I can give up just yet on having more children, but my invitro cycles are done......If it is going to happen then it will have to happen naturally at this point.

Praise the Lord.......I am on my knees in praise and gratitude!! I went in for my follie check up today! The nurse asked how I was feeling and I said I felt bloated and a lot of pressure in my abdomen. I told her I hope that it is my follicles and not gas!! When the resident and the doctor came in I jokingly said that when my husband asked me what I wanted for Valentine's Day, I told him a dozen mature eggs!! Well, we don't have a dozen but we've got a lot of good sized eggies. My doctor said I have the "three musketeers" on the right side with other smaller ones that could come into play and on my left (yes the MIA ovary) has two good sized one as well. My largest one is on my left size and is 21!! I could see all my follies like quarter sized on the screen. I am so happy. the Doctor looked up and said "you are going to trigger tonight!" I couldn't believe it. I am always the last to trigger since I respond so poorly and slowly. I take my trigger shot at 8PM tonight and my egg retrieval is at 7:45AM on Thursday. Transfer is set for Sunday. My E2 is only 641......so hopefully it will keep rising and be well over 1000 at retrieval.

Please keep us in your prayers and I'll post how many eggs were retrieved on Thursday and a fertilization report on Friday!!

Today was my day 5 ultrasound (after stimming) I was really worried and while there saw one patient leave who looked like they were crying, and heard one through the walls.......they are so darn thin......that things didn't look so good. And as I sat there thinking what if I was rushing this ivf, or trying so hard that maybe it wasn't His time for us to have more children. But then out of no where......I know it was Him, and your prayers that comforted me as I thought and prayed "This is all You, this is in Your hands, no matter what I know that whatever happens I will be ok"....and then I looked up at the ceiling (the kind of drop ceiling tile that has a gazillion little dots) and reaffirmed my mustard seed faith as I entered the ultrasound room.

Today the doctor had an intern who did my initial exam....guess that they have to learn somewhere......but that wand can be discomforting if you don't know what you are doing. My lining is good 6 or more and showing good signs of triple stripe. My right ovary has 2-3 measurable follies with a few smaller ones. My left one he couldn't find but the RE took over and found it and it had 2 follies and some smaller ones. I got the call back this afternoon that my E2 was 127!! Our ivf in Nov at day 5, I was only at 98.5. They told me they were happy with my number as anything over 100 at this point was good.

I go back on Sunday.......please continue praying for all my follies to grow and become mature. It would be great to go in on Sunday and see those smaller ones catching up. Last time I didn't have many follies and I am excited and surprised that we had some this time (I just didn't feel any action going on down there but apparently there is)

Hello!! We just wanted to update on our upcoming invitro cycle. I started the stim shots on Sunday (hopefully we will have lots of follicles on my next appointment). I went for my baseline appointment last Friday and I had one follicle already. We are hoping that we will have at least 10 or more around the same size. I am on a higher dose of medicine this time so it means I have 4 shots per day, thankfully the needles are small (like insulin needles). Our doctor is hoping that the higher dosage will help us have more eggs at retrieval. Please pray for us and we will update you after our Thursday appointment at 9:45AM!

There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss... and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.

I will be better not because of genetics, or money, or that I have read more books, but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.

I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.

I will notice everything about my child.

I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold, and feed him, and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot, or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to, or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.

I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend, and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.

I have succeeded.

I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.

I listen.

And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

(Author Unknown)

Before you read this, it is important to note that Elliott has never bitten an apple (even though we've tried hundreds of times since Cooper loves them) Anyway, this is a TRUE story and I thought you'd get a big laugh out of it!!! Last night our computer had locked up and I was in the process of rebooting it. The boys were playing with their Thomas the Tank train table and running around. I called for the boys to come upstairs to the bonus room but neither of them came but I could hear them playing and they sounded like they were having a "good time". I called out that it was time to get a bath and play in the "bubbles" when Cooper came upstairs and replied "OK, lets clean up the apples". Uh? Apples? Oh no, they've gotten into the pantry and I rush to the kitchen with Cooper holding onto my finger. And there, on the kitchen floor was Elliott surrounded by 14 apples (yes I counted them) and each and every apple had one or two bites taken out of them!! Cooper had one in his hand and Elliott had one in his and they continued to chow down on the additional two apples!! Cooper apparently was teaching Elliott how to bite an apple and Elliott would bite his apple but liked to bite the area that had the skin already off. It was all I could do not to burst out laughing as I picked up the apples and cleaned up the "juice" all over the floor! I called Jonathan at work and told him what his little guys were up to and he laughed and said they are the Apple Dumpling Gang! I can't believe I didn't get a picture.....it would have been priceless!!